My Wall

{{AD}} VENTURE
Years ago, I'm not sure I would've seen myself as a business owner or even having the opportunity to own a business. Here I am, co-owner of one business, wife of a successful business owner - AND now, it's time to move on to a new venture.

What is the venture?
I want to it to be something that I can do with my beautiful children in the same room. To be able to sit at my desk and not have to scream at my children to be quiet while I work. (of course I will scream at my children to be quiet..what mother doesn't?*smile*) What I mean is not have pressure or stress of completing a time sensitive task; a task I can walk away from for 15 - 20 minutes and tend to the needs of my babies without anxiety.

I met a wonderful person who is in the industry I want to be apart of... she is wonderful and has given me an opportunity to try something new. She is willing to help and guide me with products etc...ITS FABULOUS! Now the Start Up plan for my new wonderful venture!

THE "THING"
I have this amazing, intelligent, successful husband. A husband that is protective, loving, supportive and all the great things you look for in a man.. not saying he's perfect, but perfect for me! The "THING" is, I hate having to ask for his help. And with this new venture... I TOTALLY need his help. I have this drive inside of me to succeed (always have)! I want to do this completely by myself. Some"THING" that he can say "WOW - look at you - you did it! I didn't even know you were working on this!" ****IN MY DREAMS*** Truth is, business is hard work, you're practically a slave to it.. especially new, start up businesses. You have to be prepared for the expenses of a running a business, how are you going to make money to pay those expenses and so on. Definitely not something that can't be seen with his own eyes :)

So here I have to ask my husband for help because my husband is so awesome with naming a business, building a website, a logo, a brand, business planning etc. Everything it takes to be successful; he CAN do it! And then there is little ol' me...his "Administrative Assistant" as I like to title myself. ***sigh****

THE WALL
I finally did it.. the other night, I broke down and asked for his help! I wanted to crawl under the blankets and hide when he started asking me questions of how is it going to work..what's the plan?
And after some good conversation (and whining on my behalf) he said to me "Let me be the man" and he says that often which I normally scoff it off, roll my eyes..blah blah blah.....

I realized - I'm the one with the issue (yes-we all have "ISSUES") So here's my wall, the wall that was built with over 30 years of life.. the girl who came from broken homes. the girl who was on her own at an early age.supporting herself at 17 years old, buying a condo at 18 yrs old and the girl who never thought she would own a business.

My emotional wall that was built with bricks such as: never trust a man, a man will always leave, there isn't a man that will worship you, there doesn't exist a man that wants the best for you. Those Bricks---THAT WALL, MY Wall!

After 6 years of marriage, I am learning that my husband is pretty amazing and that it's O.K. to ask for his help. He's my partner, my best friend and the best thing in my life besides my children.

**In my eyes**Life is great! Don't let anything hold you back and don't let pride get in the way...